Langkawi Island

one year once, arp camp. this year it was held at Langkawi Island. overall, i say its fun.

went to school by 9.30pm on friday night, bus started off at 11pm. reached the kuala perlis jetty at 5.45am. waited for our ferry which is the 9am ferry to Langkawi. ferry ride to that island took another 1h30mins. =s

this is the first ever picture we took by ourself.

reached beringin resort, set up our tents by the sea side. done everything, chit-chat awhile then we slept for hours until 5pm. woke up, nothing to do, then camwhore at the beach.

chloe, me, inn and mee mee

nice pic. but spoilt by the rubbish bag at the back there. =(

our feet

the camwhore queen took it.

yeng-ness.

the grass.

we can camwhore with the grass alone. LOL

nah. again. btw, credit to 32. i din take this pic, its 32's hand took it. =D

you want food? then u have to show me your cute face. =D

another cutie. =DD

the peacock in museum mahsuri. =D

ticket to enter museum mahsuri.

me and mee mee at the seafood restaurant.

we reached school at 4am today. LOL. thanks inn's bro for fetching. slept over at inn's house. went breakfast with chloe after that and she fetched me home. =)

somehow, i gained alot from this camp. lesson that i learnt will become my experience. i'll miss everything happened there, and will remember all the time, keep it in my memory and will not delete it forever and ever. you existed in my life. you paint my life with colours. i'll remember everything between you and me. =)

after thinking so many hours, so many days..its really hard to make this decision. somehow, i did. i just dont want you nor me to suffer anymore. will keep it going on this way. i guess i know what you still thinking and how you feel. you might be the last one for me..cause i tried to let go..and its still stick to me. i really wish to forget you. but i really cant do it. maybe you can. i really tried. tried so hard..however, i still want to know the truth before telling you the truth. goodnight.

know what? as im growing day by day, the more i cant put in how i feel into words. with everything happening around me now, made me feel that im such a useless human being on earth. i dont wish to step in any deeper in this case..but if i dont, i cant test myself right? hmm. but seems like i cant take it. too much for once. i must learn more about handling stress and the situations.

however, picture do the talking.

it was awkward. after not talking to you for days. i miss you deeply.
happy 520 my love <3

just feeling updating. so..2posts in a day. =)

too much of happenings these few days. dont know how to accept all at once. as im growing day by day, the human beings i met increases, the more faces and attitudes i can see. now i realise that the earth is really huge. any kind of human beings exist within our expectation. sometimes, i'll think..why they'll never understand how i feel? do they know whats happening and hows the feeling? im not being stubborn. im just expecting them to think rationally, fair and square. no one is absolutely right and absolutely wrong. so why you all can make a decision saying that this is wrong and this is right? well, im not talking bout drugs. =P you only listen from one side, and you already made the decision that another party is wrong. is it fair? why not you analyse it after you listen from both parties? i understand it very well. cause i see it from the middle. the fair zone. well, sometimes its really easy to say it. but tough for you to achieve it. dont know what im crapping. i cant control my mind. it just keep me thinking about all these and..cant concentrate on what im supposed to do. hate myself for this.

opps. someone complaint about this huh. alright. updates. but its an emo post.

if i can get back to that moment, i wish i'll never admit bout it and everything will remain the same. yeah. sounds so irresponsible but to keep something good. its worth doing so.somehow, after knowing what you thinking about, its worth. at least its not as cold as i expected. hmm. complicated stuffs stuffing in again. im not that brave. i dont know how to figure out my words. let it be alright? just dont want to lose you. i cant imagine how is it going to be without you. you are the most important one in my life. just you and only you. kind of speechless with myself nowadays. really dont know whats wrong. even myself i cant get it. so what more bout you? not your problem. its my fault. its a wrong path for both. but how to overcome? let it go? dont know. haha

remember today okay. its worth to remember. keep it in your memory. =D

now. which way to turn to. cant control it. drop by drop, dripping at the tip. guiltiness flood in my heart. awesome